I'm clean and doing everything they are asking of me but my UA"s are still dirty when they are done with the instant test but clean when sent to the labs. The problem, God, is DHS wants the instant to be clean before I see my baby so in 5 weeks I have not been able to see him. In 2 months I go back to court and they will not let me take him home unless I have been visiting EVEN if I am clean and can prove it. But they will not let me see him w/out clean instant UA's.
What can I do but pray? and fight with everything in me but I am a single Mom recovering addict and have NO money at all and it's hard to get to work since my car broke down (no joke) 2 weeks ago(live in ft collins work in Loveland) ,thank you that I still have a job and a place to live and NA to go to and ,Of course my Mom!!!
I'm so scared I will lose him!!!
What do I do!!!Help me, God

I am posting this on CL because my higher power told me to, and I don't care what you do with it, maybe will you pray with me? PS God ,I know you have a plan for me and mine, I just don't like this part.

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